So...I'm not much of a "blogger". In fact, I mis-spell words, write in run-on sentences, and forget to start new paragraphs when I'm on a roll. However, the Holy Spirit has been dealing with me on an issue for some months now, and I must admit, I have procrastinated in obeying.
Let me start with who I am, then we'll go to why I'm here...
My name is Amy Perry, I sing in an amazing Christian group named Selah. It is my dream job, and I'm blessed and honored to get to do it. I get to sing about God for a living and it's great.
I am married, to Jacob Perry, the cutest guy I know. We will celebrate 5 years this November. He is my best friend; he makes me laugh; he's brilliant (in that really nerdy way that makes you mad because he know almost everything); he loves God; and he loves me.
I am an Auntie. I am outgoing. I am goofy. I am a gamer (MMORPG's and XBox 360).
I am 265 pounds and miserable; but miserable about the poundage, not anything else. This is the first time I've ever told anyone my weight. Not even my husband knows the exact number.
Now, to why I'm here. I am here because my weight has fluctuated between 180 and 265 pounds off an on my whole life. I gain it; I lose it. And it makes me miserable. I've been praying about how to finally lose some weight and keep it off for so long now, sometimes it feels like I shouldn't even bother, and then something happened...I felt the Holy Spirit leading me to write about it. First let me say, that I didn't hear an audible voice or anything like that. It was just this nudging in my spirit, over and over every time I prayed about my weight. The problem is, I'm not a writer. I'm a talker. I have friends who have amazing blogs, and I love to read them, not write them.
So, I've procrastinated. But not just because I'm queen of un-ending sentences, but because I started to realize what it means. If I start writing about it, then I actually have to do it, and I think that as much as I've wanted to lose weight, I never wanted it enough to actually try hard at it. Writing it here means that you can write to me. It means that you can help to hold me accountable. It means that if I say I'm going to work out tomorrow, I need to work our tomorrow or I have to log in and tell you all that I'm lazy. It means being responsible, and I haven't been ready for that; until today.
My hope for this blog is that people who deal with weight issues, or have dealt with weight issues would post. I want there to be accountability in my life, I want to be an accountability in your life. I want to know how you lost weight, tips on what to do, what not to do. I want to know that I'm not the only person in the world who loves myself until I look in a mirror, and then something happens inside me and the self-loathing takes over. I want to know that I'm not the only person in the world who sets out to eat fruit and salad and ends up eating half a pizza instead. I want help. I want accountability. I want to be healthier.
Let me end this by saying, that I know that God made me beautiful. I know I am beautiful. My husband tells me I'm beautiful. I know all these things, and yet the insecurity is there. But above anything, I want to feel good. I want to know that my body is healthy. I want to know that I have been a good steward of the body God gave me.
Sure sounds like I want a lot of things, huh? ;)
What I don't want is negativity. If you don't have something helpful or nice to say, then please move on and post somewhere else.
Amy
4 comments:
Hey Amy! Jacob just sent me the link to your blog. AMAZING!! i'm so excited to see what God does through this. I will be a part of the cloud of witnesses that's cheering you on!! (Hebrews 12:1-2)
I miss you and I love you!! katrEnka
Amy
I just received your mail, I will be praying for you and at the same time I have to tell you, you're really brave and a real inspiration. I will follow your blog and get the encourage that I need to follow your example. You have always being one of my favor gal. You can count with our prayers and our most deepest appreciation for your comminment to do this.
with love
Olga Flores
Hello Amy my name is Verna and I am so glad to see you do this I too am over weight. I was malested as a child from the age of 7 to 18 I always told my self if I was FAT they would leave me alone but the more it happened the FATTER I got and it didn't stop and even today if some one tells me I look like I've lost wait I get scared and gain more weight.I weight 275 I lost 80 pounds about 9 years ago and looked pretty good but I was fallin' from the LORD and was in a life of drinking and sex because that was my life as a child.
I might sound strange but I was comfortable there because that's what I knew.Anyway I hope that I too can use this as a way to be accountable,because the people in my life either just make fun 'cause they don't know what to say or they just deal with.I need help and don't know how to get it and I'm afraid.please pray for me as I will be praying for you. also to show you how I procrastonate I purchased the same Hip Hp Abs a year ago and it's still in the BOX!! that's BAD. well hope I didn't bore you. God Bless you. You can do it.Verna
Hey Amy!
Just wanted to let you know that I'm really looking forward to sharing your journey with you. I, too, from being inspired by you already, am going to make it a goal to get this darn weight off too! I can totally relate to your story on here. I can't wait to be on the journey with you, my friend.
You may remember me from the KT and Friends Cruise in February. I was the karaoke "wanna be" star who sang "I Will always Love you."
I, too, began blogging after the cruise if you wanna share my journey with me also.
www.carrieolivermusicministries.blogspot.com
Love ya!
Your sister-in-Christ,
Carrie Oliver
(Weirton, WV)
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